Today…today was a whole new day…today was beautiful and wonderful and exhilarating…and slightly terrifying.
Yesterday was the end…the end of a chapter…the end of settling and accepting and allowing life to just happen to me. Yesterday I spent my last day living in a world that I no longer belong in.
This morning I woke up to the life I choose. I woke up to my dream. I spent my day between playing with our puppy and organizing my office and as the day wore on I found it difficult to understand how I ever spent my days behind cubicle walls, tethered to a phone and a schedule that dictated every moment of my work day right down to my bathroom breaks. And even before that, all the years inside glass and concrete, behind desks and computers and piles of paper and never-ending meetings. Who was that girl? How did she seem to get it so wrong.
Tonight as I skimmed through Facebook and text messages I was reminded that those years have not been wasted. Those hours of striving to meet goals, deadlines and expectations have given me so much more than I deserve. They have given me knowledge and skills that I will desperately need in the coming days and years. They have taught me team-work and dedication but most importantly they have given me the blessings of love and support in the shape of the amazing people I have met along the way. So many of the most important people in my life have entered my life in the work place. My husband, my best friend, my gang…the people I count true friends. So many of the wonderful individuals that inspire me I have either met at work or through the people I know from work. For these things I am truly grateful because without those skills, knowledge and loved ones I would not have been able to take this step.
Today was amazing. For the first time in years…maybe the first time in my life…I am proud and happy to be me.
Stay tuned as I embark on my journey to become a professional photographer. I know there will be many ups and downs but when you finally find your purpose and make the choice to have faith in the Creator who gave it to you…you have to know that it’s going to be a wild, wonderful ride.