One of my favorite past-times is watching Food Network TV and HGTV. I am in awe of people who can make wonderful meals out of bizarre ingredients and those who put themselves out there to accomplish their dream of being The Next Food Network Star. And I’m pretty sure if I ever met Chip and Joanna Gaines from Fixer Upper that we could be great friends.
I realize I could definitely be whiling away the hours with even less productive and even more destructive pursuits but over the past couple of weeks I have become painfully aware that I take way too much for granted and I waste precious time on idleness. There are things I sincerely want to accomplish and experience in this life and I am never going to do either if I allow my fears to keep me tethered to my couch watching other people accomplish theirs.
It is my dream to be a photographer and like many people, I am my own worst critic and I too often allow the voices in my head to keep me from trying. If I take a photo that I think is pretty cool, it’s only a matter of time before I start picking it apart and finding any little flaw that I think keeps it from being great. I sabotage my confidence, my own creative ability and thought and in no time that really cool picture is nothing more than an amateur attempt at what only really good photographers can do.
So, I am making the choice to dust myself off, get back up and try again…and again…and again, if necessary. While walking through our local festival I paid particular attention to the photography booths (always my favorite), and felt both exhilarated and crushed. Some of these people do amazing work but instead of letting the voices bring me down, I kept reminding myself, they too were once dreamers, just wanting to do what they love.