Shortly after I began this blog I took a new job. I took it for the possibilities that it offers and I am still confident that I made a good decision. Unfortunately, while it has brought much needed positive changes, it did come with some drawbacks; the two most daunting being the pay and the schedule. The pay will get better and having a job that I enjoy has value to me. The schedule, however, has been a struggle in balance, patience and planning.
For many years I have become accustomed to a somewhat regular 7-4 or 8-5. Getting up with my kids and arriving home only a short time after them was a dream come true. These days I still get up with everyone but I have my mornings to clean, pay bills, do laundry, workout or in what became an embarrassing habit for a few weeks…binge watch my favorite shows. I’m quite fond of having time in the morning to enjoy a peaceful cup of coffee and not feel rushed. I also know that I’m not using that time very wisely but evenings are where I really feel the pinch. Getting home after 7:00pm every night creates a somewhat jumbled eating schedule and a mad rush to help with homework, check emails and keep up with the coming and going of everyone. Sadly, too many nights I drag through the door exhausted and want to beeline for bed. Instead, after I’ve done the bare necessities, I find myself staring numbingly into the TV and wishing I had the energy to get outside for a walk or take pictures of the peaceful scenes that play out just outside my front porch.
Thankfully I am beginning to feel a bit more reconciled with my hours and falling into a bit more productive pattern. As I make my way through the adjustments and learn to be more efficient and less blase about my time, I can feel myself settling into a very comfortable tolerance. I am more aware of the things that “need” to be done and I’m learning to be patient with myself when I don’t quite accomplish all that I had hoped. It has become a bit of a mantra to simply enjoy the process rather than wishing everything would just hurry up and happen already. I’m resolving to get to bed sooner, turn off the TV and read more and find inspiration in the peaceful, quiet moments.