Have you ever taken stock of your life and laid out all of your bridges? You know, your relationships, goals, dreams and priorities and then set fire to them all? Sadly, I can say that there was a time in my life when I did almost exactly that. I took what should have been a promising future and drowned it in my own self pity. Too often I would look in the mirror and think, this is not who I was suppose to be. This was not how my life was suppose to go. At the age of 24 I would find myself unmarried and pregnant. The birth of my daughter would be a gift that I did not see coming.
An unexpected surprise, her strong-will and stubborn attitude was exactly what this passive, pathetic girl needed. Just keeping up with her was an exercise in tenacity! More than that, she helped me discover that life was so much bigger than my problems. Her all-or-nothing spirit gave me courage and her unconditional love gave me confidence. Over the years her polar opposite personality would continually challenge me and in time I would finally learn, hopefully not too late, that it was not my place to try and contain her and mold her into a mini me, it was my job to protect her, yes, but also to teach her how to love and appreciate the amazing person that she is.
My daughter is an adult now and she still barrels through life at warp speed. She still rolls her eyes at me from time to time and we still disagree more often than not but she has also helped me to see that sometimes I need to listen to my own advice.
I recently read a quote by Plato and at the time I found it harsh and cold but upon closer inspection, maybe I just misunderstood.
“The unexamined life is not worth living.” Plato